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grab a shovel [Jul. 12th, 2009|12:46 am]
You took all we ever had
turned it upside down
took our ideas
And spread them like poison

Get a shovel and bash bash bash
Grab a shovell and bash bash bash

You went went from being someone we knew
To some ungodly creature
went from being a great idol
Into nothing but a bitch

Get a shovel and bash bash bash
Grab a shovell and smash smash smash

Bash our Dream
Smash our hope
Bash our friendship
Crash your dreams

Your poison, to the soul
Your cyanide to the brain
Your hitler at heart
and a poser in life

Grab a shovel and bash bash bash
Grab a shovel and bash bash bash
BAsh bash bash
BASH
BASH
BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAASHHHHHH



I like it I wrote and like it... makesw me feel better... aww sweet violence
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To clear some things up [Jul. 11th, 2009|06:50 pm]
Fuck you guys you all think you know everything fucking thing.. Wrong Oh. A journal is used to write down what a person thinks and how they feel... that includes if its "Attacking other people" And for being a adult most of you fuckers don't even know what it is to be one so until you all get a real fucking job don't talk so big cuase you know the higher you are the harder you fall. I will say this no one is entited to rad my journal you don't have too... My first amendent right is Freedom of speach and I'm gonna fucking use it. Oh and here are some real big slaps to the face, There are no real adults no one is the same and no one is goona act the same you all saying "be Mature" why don't you look at our fucking military... Most of those fuckers are more immature then those of you who say "Be Mature" and there serving our fucking country. So if any of you bastards got anythign else to say then you better say it now. Cause I'm tired of putting up with the real babies the ones who dont' know what true work is and the ones who are too stuck up.


Good day and if I offended anyone then I'm glad ^_^ go fuck yourselves.
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To Casey and no one else [Jul. 8th, 2009|12:42 pm]
My best friend gave me the best advice
He said each day's a gift and not a given right
Leave no stone unturned, leave your fears behind
And try to take the path less traveled by
That first step you take is the longest stride

If today was your last day and tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last
Leave old pictures in the past?
Donate every dime you had, if today was your last day?
What if, what if, if today was your last day?

Against the grain should be a way of life
What's worth the price is always worth the fight
Every second counts 'cause there's no second try
So live like you're never living twice
Don't take the free ride in your own life

If today was your last day and tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last?
Leave old pictures in the past?
Donate every dime you had?

And would you call those friends you never see?
Reminisce old memories?
Would you forgive your enemies?
And would you find that one you're dreaming of?
Swear up and down to God above
That you'd finally fall in love if today was your last day?

If today was your last day
Would you make your mark by mending a broken heart?
You know it's never too late to shoot for the stars
Regardless of who you are

So do whatever it takes
'Cause you can't rewind a moment in this life
Let nothing stand in your way
'Cause the hands of time are never on your side

If today was your last day and tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last?
Leave old pictures in the past?
Donate every dime you had?

And would you call those friends you never see?
Reminisce old memories?
Would you forgive your enemies?
And would you find that one you're dreaming of
Swear up and down to God above
That you'd finally fall in love if today was your last day?


I've kept quiet, but I think I've kept quiet for far too long. This is directed to you Casey I don't care who replies to this or what not but its to CAsey no one else. When you severed tie with Kitt, You severed ties with us all... Dont' say its not true... It is I mean come on, you've been saying since Sprinng break you woudl come see me.... you haven't... You say that you need time from us but how long? half a year one maybe two? You dont' talk to any of us any more Prue gave up on you... and if you want to know it hurt her when you were calling her becaue she knew it was because you didint' have kitt to talk to and you never call me.... I've learned over the years, that best friends do fight... but what truely makes them best friends is that at the end they can make up and laugh about it later.... Thats not you....

To be truthful you have chcanged alot, I dont' even know you anymore. I thought it was becaue of Chris but that's understandable, you wnt to change for loved ones...Do you ignore us becuase Chris hates us? WE know he does so no need to hide it. You've hurt me... Espeically in Walmart... When you hid in the bathroom cause you seen Kitt... That hurt more then anythign and you not only hurt me but kitt.. She was excited to see you.. she wanted to say hi... I dont' know who you are anymore... But if I have to say good bye to you, then I will.... You use to be one of my best friend, now ... you not even there.
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^_^ [May. 17th, 2009|01:27 am]
[Current Location |home]
[Current Mood | Weeeeeeeeeeee]
[Current Music |"Prisoner" Jeffree starr]

Alright so alot of stuff has happened since I last posted.

First off THE NIGHTWISH CONCERT WAS FUCKING AWESOME!!!!! I mean it was great and we were so close ^____^ Volbeat the band that opened for them was awesome too ^_^ we got mosh pit experience adn everythign it was a sweet concert I bought a shirt, prue bought a shirt and a Nightwish flag and Kitt bought a shirt with a used Drum head ^___^ Its fucking awesome cause it has all the band memebers sig on it ^__^

The trip was fucking awesome as well, we didint' get to go to the zoo but that was okay. We got lost alot but it was fun, Kentucky is really beautiful well louseiville is ^^ We ate at this place call fuji japanese steak house, we were going to caompare it to Osakas, Fuji was cheaper but Osakas shots fuji out of the water anyday ^__^ their suchi was really good. Oh and the coolest part of the trip is ^___^ I leaned how to swim ^___^ yay me. THe only sucky part about the trip was I killed my watch by accident ^^; but no worries easily replaced.
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Woooooooooooooo HUuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu [Apr. 19th, 2009|04:52 pm]
^___^
Its offical I'm goig to the Nightwish concert

Me Kitt and prue have our hotel reserved and our tickets. Wolfie might get to go it all depends on her mom T.t so yeah.

^___^

But I'm excited
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^^ Whooo [Apr. 14th, 2009|12:31 pm]
[Current Location |Library]
[Current Mood | Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee]

^^ Alright so i'm going to post what happened over easter... I got a little tyspy from drinking the night before easter and I called wolfie... Thouse of you who dont' know it WOlfie is my grilfriend. She wasn't happy I was typsy but I appolgized to her on Easter and proised not to do it again. But this is the aswesome news ^_^ I'M GOING TO GET TO SEE NIGHTWISH IN CONCERT AGAIN ^^ Kitt, Prue, Me and maybe wolfie is going to go ^____________^ I'm so excited
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update [Apr. 9th, 2009|01:38 pm]
nothing new has really happened,

1. doseage upage on Prozac

2. My finger got smashed yeserday and is really really badly bruised

3. might be going to the nightwish concert

4. Might getting to see wolfie next month ^_^

5... there is no number five.
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Saturday ^^ [Feb. 12th, 2009|11:48 pm]
[Tags|, ]
[Current Location |Home]
[Current Mood | ZOMG WEeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee]
[Current Music |"One step closer" - Linkin Park]

DUDE I'm so exicted about Saturday Yeah it V-day, and my girlfriend is in Florida... But we send each other our hearts so its all good. What I'm siked about is speding the day with Prue, Kitt and Suki ( Ashlee) ^^ There hasn't been a group outting in a looong time so I friken exicted. so far our plans are to go to Osakas,a movie, g2k games, and I guess the mall or whatever. And a possible spend the night with everyone but I dunno if I'll get to do tht but I don't care . ^^ I'm excited and pumped and.... did I mention excited XD I'm going with kelosie to work taking her car to Sukis's after that were going to return kelsies car and have kitt pick us up at G2Games and from there were heading to her house so she change change where prue will meet us there and thus start our jouney. ^____^ SOOOO FRIKEN HAPPY
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Better day [Feb. 7th, 2009|04:00 pm]
[Current Location |home]
[Current Mood | chipper]
[Current Music |Lady Gaga- Just dance]

Okay so my last post was mostly lyrics and bad stuff ^^ just to infrom eveyr one I'm feeling better. Last night I was going to go out with kelsie but serena woudlnt' watch jonnah (her baby brother) so I ended up going to Kmart alone. I bought a wicked new watch ^^ its friken awesome I love it! its black and and and its cool ^^ I'll get a picture soon enough. After that I went to super dollar to get some milk. Ashlee was working so she told me to wait on her and we went to G2games and hung out with kitt and prue ^^ it was awesome.

OH I almost forgot I found this Amazeing author her name is Julie Anne Peters, Ryoko you have one of her books Define Normal, I've read two other books by her Keeping you a secret and Luna. Both great books if you ever have any free time I recomdend them.
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Angel Goth Minister [Feb. 5th, 2009|08:57 pm]
These wings won’t learn to rise
In the pale and wicked light beneath the skies
Broken, blinded, you are paralysed
You belong to them who believe they’ll be denied

Take my hand just to be my love
The time has come to rise above
The angel now has broken wings
And something to obtain
The day the sun just went away

You’re shivering in the dark
When you feel it’s coming closer every time
Now the mentor is calling you
Can’t you see the flames beyond your fading eyes

Take my hand just to be my love
Be my love just to be the one

I'm not feeling good at all physicall y or metnally...
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Doing Pretty good [Jan. 25th, 2009|05:52 pm]
[Tags|]
[Current Location |Home]
[Current Mood | Happy Ninja]
[Current Music |Majick Gay- T.A.T.U.]

I was goona update last last week but I've been busy ^^ SO this is was Iv'e done

~Last Sunday I went to kitts and spent the night ^^ fun stuff casue we walked to food country while it was snowing. The Next day we spent and hour and a half playing in the snow. We had snow ball fights, made snow angels did carwheels, rolls it was great.

~Tuesday I go to the theoprist Scary dude

~WEdensday I go to my doctor she upped my prozaky so I take a higher dosaged

~Thursday was boring the only think gI did was,, clean

~Friday I went out with Kelsie and Jonnah I got a manga from BAM and ordered another Manga and a book

~Saturday I went to the Mall with Kitt and Ashlee (Kitts co-worker and my new friend^^) After going to the call we stayed at Ashlees for a bit ^^ she's pretty cool we have alot in common ^^ so we all had a blast

~Today I've rested and stuff.

SO not alot has happened but of what has it's been good ^^ I mean I made a new friend so how bad coudl it be?
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Update [Jan. 12th, 2009|01:37 am]
[Current Location |Home]
[Current Mood | blank]
[Current Music |Not exactly sure some random song.]

So I'm goona update on my last entry

~Dunno if I put it in my last entry dotn' think so but Sassy had pups the 6th ^^ their cute no odd color ones three girls and one boy

~I went to the doctor and found out that I am depressed and I am Bipolar

~Got meds

~I havne't had any fight with me dad so that's good
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What Feeling am I not feeling? [Jan. 3rd, 2009|02:47 am]
[Current Location |Home]
[Current Mood | I call Bull shitery]
[Current Music |Katy Perry "Hont N Cold"]

Okay so new years eve sucked before Kitt and Prue came and got me. My dad came home form the hunting shack (butnch of drunk hunters) and he started going off.... I... I lost it and I just started wailing on him....I won the fight... so yeah.. More happened but dint' feel like talking about that... so yeah

I was fine at Kitts house though we played Singstar ( I didn't) Okami, and Manhunt 2 (which kinda sucks) yeah we watched the ball drop talked a bit and then went to bed.

Nothing really happened Newyears expect I got emails from my lovely wolfie ^___^ which so totally made me happy. We talked till 6 in the morning X_X that killed me.... She was suppose to fcall but yeah....

Now whats really iratating me, we didint' get to meet over christmas right. Well I said we can try for the summer, she was like Yeah.... She wants to come here.... Which is like awesome because non of my exs ever offered to comehere. ^____^

Well later tonight (which is the second) I asked mom if she could stay here... she flat out said no.... This is the reason I'm poisse doff.....She let my brothers girlfriends stay with him... and they whored arould... my sisters boyfriends..... BUT SHE WON'T LET MY GIRLFRIEND STAY WITH ME. I already told her, that we won't be holding hands or anything you know... I'm not that supid -_- nor will we have sex..... What really pisses me off is that if it was Kitt, Prue, Or Ryoko sure they could stay with me... but NOT Wolfie....

Yeah so that pisses me off a little... so I was like fine, you tell me about the motel in saltville is... and you won't see me for a week. mmm I have a bit of a headache so yeah.... I hope everyoen newyear went well ^^ Love you all
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Bored [Dec. 11th, 2008|12:48 am]
[Current Mood | Mew?]

Stereotype survey:

[ ]I'm SKINNY, so I MUST be anorexic.
[X ]I'm EMO, so I MUST cut my wrists.
[ ]I'm a NEGRO so I MUST carry a gun.
[ ]I'm BLONDE, so I MUST be a ditz
[ ]I'm JAMAICAN so I MUST smoke weed.
[ ]I'm HAITIAN so I MUST eat cat.
[ ]I'm ASIAN, so I MUST be sexy.
[ X ]I'm JEWISH, so I MUST be greedy.
[ ]I'm GAY, so I MUST have AIDS. -
[X ]I'm a LESBIAN, so I MUST have a sex-tape.
[ ]I'm ARAB, so I MUST be a terrorist.
[ X ]I SPEAK MY MIND, so I MUST be a bitch.
[ X ]I'm a GAY RIGHTS SUPPORTER, so I WILL go to hell.
[ X ]I'm a CHRISTIAN, so I MUST think gay people should go to hell.
[ X ]I'm RELIGIOUS, so I MUST shove my beliefs down your throat.
[ ]I'm ATHEIST so I MUST hate the world.
[ ]I don't have a RELIGION, so I MUST be evil and have no morals
[ ]I'm REPUBLICAN, so I MUST not care about poor people.
[ ]I'm DEMOCRAT, so I MUST not believe in being responsible.
[ ]I am LIBERAL, so I MUST be gay.
[ X ]I'm SOUTHERN, so I MUST be white trash.
[ ]I TAKE ANTI-DEPRESSANTS, so I MUST be crazy.
[ ]I'm a GUY, so I MUST only want to get into your pants.
[ X ]I'm IRISH, so I MUST have a bad drinking problem.
[ ]I'm INDIAN, so I MUST own a convenience store.
[ X ]I'm NATIVE AMERICAN, so I MUST dance around a fire screaming like a savage.
[ ]I'm a CHEERLEADER, so I MUST be a whore
[ ]I'm a DANCER, So I must be stupid, stuck up, and a whore
[ ]I wear SKIRTS a lot, so I MUST be a slut.
[ ]I'm a PUNK, so I MUST do drugs.
[ ]I'm RICH, so I MUST be a conceited snob.
[ X ]I WEAR BLACK, so I MUST be a goth or emo.
[ X ]I'm a WHITE GIRL, so I MUST be a nagging, steal-your-money kind of girlfriend.
[ ]I'm CUBAN, so I MUST spend my spare time rolling cigars.
[ ]I'm NOT A VIRGIN, so I MUST be easy.
[ ]I FELL IN LOVE WITH A MARRIED MAN, so I MUST be a home-wrecking whore.
[ ]I'm a TEENAGE MOM, so I MUST be an irresponsible slut.
[ ]I'm POLISH, so I MUST wear my socks with my sandals
[ ]I'm ITALIAN, so I must have a "big one".
[ ]I'm EGYPTIAN, so I must be a TERRORIST!
[ ]I'm PRETTY, so I MUST not be a virgin.
[ ]I HAVE STRAIGHT A'S, so I MUST have no social life.
[ X]I DYE MY HAIR CRAZY COLORS, so I MUST be looking for attention.
[ X ]I DRESS IN UNUSUAL WAYS so I MUST be looking for attention.
[ X ]I'm INTO THEATER & ART, so I MUST be a homosexual.
[ ]I'm a VEGETARIAN, so I MUST be a crazy political activist.
[ X ]I HAVE A BUNCH OF GUY FRIENDS, so I MUST be fucking them all.
[ X ]I HAVE A BUNCH OF GIRLS WHO ARE FRIENDS, so I MUST be a player.
[ ]I have Big BOOBS, so I MUST be a hoe.
[ ]I'm COLOMBIAN, so I MUST be a drug dealer.
[ X ]I WEAR WHAT I WANT, so I MUST be a poser.
[ ]I'm RUSSIAN, so I MUST be cool.
[ X]I'm GERMAN, so I must be a Nazi.
[ X ]I hang out with GAYS, so i must be GAY TOO
[ ]I'm BRAZILIAN, so I MUST have a BIG BUTT.
[ ]I'm PUERTO RICAN, so I MUST look good and be conceited
[ ]I'm SALVADORIAN, so I MUST be in MS 13
[ ]I'm POLISH, so I MUST be greedy
[ ]I'm HAWAIIAN so I MUST be lazy
[ ]I'm PERUVIAN, so I MUST like llamas
[ ]I'm a STONER so I MUST be going in the wrong direction
[ X ]I'm a VIRGIN so I MUST be prude
[ ]I'm STRAIGHT EDGE so I must be violent.
[ X ]I'm a FEMALE GAMER, so I MUST be ugly.. or crazy.
[ ]I'm BLACK so I MUST love fried chicken and kool-aid.
[ X ]I'm a GIRL who actually EATS LUNCH, so I MUST be fat.
[ ]I'm SINGLE so I MUST be ugly.
[ ]I'm a SKATER so I must do weed and steal stuff
[ ]I'm a PUNK so I must only wear black and date only other punks
[ ]I'm ASIAN so I must be a NERD that does HOMEWORK 24/7
[ X ]I'm CHRISTIAN so I MUST hate homosexuals.
[x]I'm MIXED so I must be screwed up.
[ ]I'm MUSLIM so I MUST be a terrorist.
[ ]I'm in BAND, so I MUST be a dork.
[ ]I'm BLACK so I MUST believe JESUS WUZ A BROTHA
[ ]I'm MORMON so I MUST be perfect
[ X ]I'm WHITE and have black friends so I MUST think I'm black
[ X ]I'm GOTH so I MUST worship the devil
[ ]I'm HISPANIC, so I MUST be dirty.
[ X ]I'm NOT LIKE EVERYONE ELSE, so I MUST be a loser.
[X ]I'm OVERWEIGHT, so I MUST have a problem with self control.
[ ]I'm PREPPY, so I MUST shun those who don't wear Abercrombie & Hollister.
[ ]I'm on a DANCE team, so I must be stupid, stuck up, and a whore.
[ ]I'm YOUNG, so I MUST be naive.
[ ]I'm RICH, so I MUST be a conceited snob
[ ]I'm MEXICAN, so I MUST have hopped the border.
[ ]I GOT A CAR FOR MY BIRTHDAY, so I MUST be a spoiled brat.
[ ]I'm BLACK, so I MUST love watermelon
[ ]I'm BI, so I MUST think every person I see is hot.
[ ]I'm an ASIAN GUY, so I MUST have a small penis.
[ ]I'm a GUY CHEERLEADER, so I MUST be gay.
[ ]I'm a PREP, so I MUST be rich.
[ X ]I don't like the SUN so I MUST be an albino.
[ ]I have a lot of FRIENDS, so I MUST love to drink and party.
[ ]I wear tight PANTS and I'm a guy, so I MUST be emo.
[ ]I couldn't hurt a FLY, So I MUST be a pussy.
[ X ]I support GAY RIGHTS, so I MUST fit in with everyone.
[ ]I hang out with teenage drinkers and smokers, so I MUST smoke and drink too.
[ X ]I have ARTISTIC TALENT, so I MUST think little of those who don't.
[ X ]I don't like to be in a BIG GROUP, so I MUST be anti-social.
[ X ]I have a DIFFERENT sense of HUMOR, so I MUST be crazy.
[ X ]I tell people OFF, so I MUST be an over controlling bitch.
[ ]My hair gets GREASY a lot, so I MUST have no hygiene skills.
[x]I'm DEFENSIVE, so I MUST be over controlling and a bitch.
[ ]I'm a NUDIST, so I MUST want everyone to see my boobs.
[ X ]I read Comics, so I MUST be a loser.
[ ]I hang out with a FORMER PROSTITUTE.. So I MUST be a whore myself.
[ ]I'm TEXAN so I MUST ride a horse
[ X ]I’m a GOTH, so I MUST be a Satanist
[ ]I’m a CROSSDRESSER, so I must be homosexual.
[ X ]I draw ANIME so I MUST be a freak.
[ X ]I am a FANGIRL so I MUST be a crazy, obsessed stalker.
[ X ]I WATCH PORN so I MUST be perverted.
[ ]I'm an ONLY CHILD so I MUST be spoiled.
[ X ]I'm INTELLIGENT so I MUST be weak.
[ X ]I am AMERICAN so I MUST be obese, loud-mouthed and arrogant.
[ ]I'm WELSH so I MUST love sheep
[ X]I’m a YOUNG WRITER, so I MUST be emo.
[ ]I’m CANADIAN, so I MUST talk with a funny accent.
[ ]I'm a GUY, so I MUST ditch my pregnant girlfriend.
[ ]I'm CANADIAN, so I MUST love hockey and beavers.
[ ]I'm DISABLED, so I MUST be on Welfare.
[ X]I'm a FEMINIST, so I MUST have a problem with sexuality and I want to castrate every man on the earth.
[ ]I'm a TEENAGER, so I MUST have a STEREOTYPE.
[ ]I WEAR A BIG SUNHAT when I go outside, so I MUST be stupid.
[ X ]I like BLOOD, so I must be a VAMPIRE.
[ ]I'm an ALBINO, so I MUST be an evil person with mental abilities
[ ]I'm ENGLISH, so I MUST speak with either a cockney or a posh accent, love tea and cricket, and have bad teeth.
[ X ]I’m WHITE, so I MUST be responsible for everything going wrong on the planet: past, present, and future.
[ ]I don't like YAOI or YURI, so I must be a HOMOPHOBE
[ X ]I’m not the most POPULAR person in school, so I MUST be a loser
[ X ]I care about the ENVIRONMENT...I MUST be a tree hugging hippy
[ X ]I have a FAN CHARACTER, so it MUST be an annoying Mary-sue.
[ X]I CHAT, so I MUST be having cyber sex.
[ ]I'm PAGAN so I MUST sacrifice babies and drink the blood of virgins
[ ]I'm PAGAN so I MUST worship Satan
[ X ]I'm CONSERVATIVE, so I MUST be against Abortion
[ ]I'm SWEDISH so I MUST be a tall blond blue-eyed lesbian.
[ X]I'm a LESBIAN so I MUST want to get with every single girl that I see.
[ X ]I like CARTOONS, so I MUST be IRRESPONSIBLE.
[ X ]I like READING, so I MUST be a LONER.
[ ]I have my OWN spiritual ideology; therefore I MUST be WRONG or MISGUIDED.
[ ]I am WICCAN, so I MUST be a SATANIST.
[ X ]I DISAGREE with my government, so I MUST be a TERRORIST.
[ ]I am a WITCH, so I MUST be an OLD HAG and fly on a broomstick.
[ ]I like YAOI, so I MUST be GAY. .
[ X ]I'm a PERSON, so I MUST be LABELED
[ ]I DON'T CURSE, so I MUST be an outcast
[ X ]I like GAMES, CARTOONS and COMICS, so I MUST be childish
[ ]I'm SWEDISH, therefore I MUST be WHITE.
[ X ]I SPOT GRAMMATICAL ERRORS, so I MUST be a pedantic bastard.
[ X ]I'm GOTHIC, so I MUST be mean.
[ X ]I’m STRONG so I MUST be stupid.
[ ]I'm Australian so I MUST hunt crocodiles and talk to kangaroos
[ ]I go to RENFAIRES, so I MUST talk weird, be a loser, and not be up with the times
[ ]I’m GAY so I’m after EVERY straight guy around.
[X ]I don’t want a BOYFRIEND so I MUST be Lesbian.
[ ]I'm NOT CHRISTIAN so I MUST just need converting.
[ ]I love marching band, so I MUST be a friendless freak.
[ X]I DRINK, so I MUST have no life.
[ X]I am friends with a CUTTER, so I MUST be a CUTTER too.
[ ]I cry easily, so I MUST be a wimp.
[ X ]I can't help pointing out mistakes so I MUST be an over-controlling perfectionist
[ ]I'm a PERFECTIONIST so I MUST check everything ten times, then burst into tears at one mistake
[ ]I DON'T LIKE to talk about my personal life so I MUST be having problems

Some of these were true about me some were not I found some to be humoerous. ^^

Hmm I guess I'll do a small update I can acutally but peopel present this yeah (nothing expensive but oemthign) I talked to my grilfriend a few days ago she's working herself to deaht T.T poor girl and since we can't meet for chritmas (whichis kinda making me donw) were meetingin the summer after she moves out. Everythings okay I guess, I've had a few breakdowns but I haven't gone back to cutting which is good. i've been working on my Shoto-kan Katas ^^ it's going slowly but nic so yeah. Um yeah that's about it I'll update later. Love you guys hope everyone is nice and safe ^^
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Mew [Nov. 25th, 2008|08:22 pm]
[Current Location |Room]
[Current Mood | sleepy]
[Current Music |Shinedown "Devour"]

Mmm why am I just now posting? Lol toe tell you the truth I've been busy lately. I'm dead tired becuase I've been watching Jonaah more and I know have to sleep with him because my stupid ass father (who normally sleeps with him) is back at the shack hunting T.T. Hmmm nothign really intretin has happened since my last post.. except I dunno if yall heard it but I got my tatoo ^^ I'll get picture as soon ws I find my camera. Oh I currently have a ear ache from hell... it start sunday... and it was so bad that I actally started crying it hurt so bad X_X yeah.. Happy Early thanskgiving everyone and I hope everyones traveling has safe travels ^^
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Just a lil update [Sep. 25th, 2008|04:41 pm]
[Current Location |Room]
[Current Mood | calm]
[Current Music |"The Poet and the Pendulum" Nightwish]

Hello, I hath and update cause.. I wanted to XD

Things are umm okay Iguess... I'm kinda umm sick but nothign that wont' pass in a day or two ^^

I found out that punking will be going to Kentucky nexty month to work for my cousin T.T I'm nto too happy about that..

I finally got Dark Passion Play Cd ^^ Thank you Kitt for the copy.

I might be getting a tatoo, I mean I've go thte mony and I've made an apoiment but I wanna hear from kagome first cause if so I wanna go to tech for halloween so yeah.

I'm just kinda sitting here at the moment in peace I hope everyoen is doing good ^^

*EDIT*

Oh Yeah I foudn out Iris, My vampire character who her voice actreess woudl be... Prue woudl kill me if she knew itm but it woudl be Annette Olzon

Casue Afte rI went to the nightwish concert I had a dream a few weeks later adn it was Iris speacking it was Annette's voice but I coudlnt' figure it out till I got the Dark Passion Play CD last night from kitt when I was sitting here listening to the Poet and the Pendulum and all of a sudden she starts talkinga nd I jumped and was like "OH EMM GEE ITS IRIS XD"
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Low on past few days [Sep. 16th, 2008|08:40 pm]
Okay so satruday sucked not going any fruther then that

Sunday- Sunday was intresting I had just got the house to myslef when I went to check my email and I heard a knock on the door. I was like... werid... Well I found out it was Ryoko and Kitt ^^ they kidnapped me for the day. It was awesome I got a surpoise party and everything Kagome was there and so was willber. ^^ Sunday rocked.

Monday~ I had to get my lieces renewed X_X not so fun lol thrity two bucks for eight not tooo bad. AFter that I went to Super dollar to get soem thigns with mom.. learned Kvat discountied carrying my ramen Orential flavor I was lik X_X NOOOOOOOOOOOOOoooooooooooooo. Hmmm then I came home checked my eamil and I get an email form Wolfie but it's not her, its' her mom and it's said please do not contasct my daughter anymore. So I was freaking out and then I tried emila her back with a really formal letter asking why.. Found out her email was disconuted well I got an email later from one of her friends that has my email and we got the same email... found out that she can't get calls either so were like WTF what the hell did she doo so yeah. Monday wascool my sister is goona take me to get some shoes for my brithday ^_^ and my brother is goona take me out to eat... but I'm goona see if he'll pay for a tatoo instead >> I dont' see that one happening but you know I can dream XD

Tuesday~ umm today has been slow XD nothign intresting so far so good
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I cant' take much more... [Sep. 13th, 2008|09:00 pm]
[Current Mood | Don't you dare call me that]
[Current Music |Slow Burn- Atreyu]

I really can't take much more, the gas thing I'm okay with I guess, but everythgin else. Okay I was suppose to go and play D&D today But last night I got sick.. I was pukeing my guts out pretty much. I didint' get into bed till about seven and I felt so eh... bad... My brother is pissed cause I didn't go... His son didn't go but he didn't go cause he just a prick... Okay... My mom and sister keep calling me crazy, and my mom called me Atheist the other day... Okay that got under my skin my serena then started to call me Crazy and then tongiht... My dad called me an idiot and crazy and he meant it.. I broke down.. I creid and... and I cute again... I cant' beleive I cut again I feel... like a failure... like every day of my life...I can't stopp crying longer then fifteen mintues...

It begins with a dark glowing ember,
something black burning it's way out of me.
Searing the flesh,
pain is the only thing I feel,
scars all I see.

Oh no the fire's burning my insides again,
what can I do to silence my desire tonight?
Flames consuming reason leaving only ashes left
you will catch me regretting my decision,
I can't keep telling myself what I want to hear,
I can't just close my eyes.

I know that it's killing me,
and it's poisoning the best in me,
what i say, I don't want to believe.
So let me tell you more (tell you more)
about the lies I lead.

That is how i choose to douse the flames in gasoline
Broken dreams replace the blackened memories in my head
Wreckage from my past haunts me, shakes me to the bone
(to the bone)
I know it's over but I can't go home tonight.

But after this I feel as empty as the night before,
feel the pain and yet I'm still begging for more.
Masochistic, nihilistic, urging backward thought
My life's a mess and I can't find a way to fix it.

I can't keep telling myself what I want to hear,
I can't just close my eyes
(my eyes, my eyes, my fucking eyes)

I know that it's killing me,
and it's poisoning the best of me,
What I say, I don't want to believe.
So let me tell you more, tell you more,
about the lies I lead.

Calling, calling out.
The darkest reaches of my soul,
are riddled with self-doubt.
Crawling, crawling out,
my will to fight will more than suffice,
when others would lay down.

It's only as dark as you make it.

I know that it's killing me,
and it's poisoning the best of me,
what I say, I don't want to believe.
So let me tell you more, tell you more
about the lies I lead.




I'm not crazy.... and I'm not an idiot
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Update [Aug. 30th, 2008|10:11 pm]
Today... felt sooo long.... I spent tenhours in a f8cking garage playing D&D...I truthfully didn't want to go... but I told my brothe rI woudl so I did.. I was in there with seven other guys V.V I hate being the only girl...

Not only that but I found.. which I feel bad for is I hate men.. and it's not because of my sexuality...I jsut have a tendency to hate a guy.. not all guys byut most.... I feel bad for hta

It diidnt' help that I had to hold my bladder for damn nearly ten hours... cause they coudl go and pee besid a tree but I coudlnt' -_- that was torture

Plus I'm getting a cold or soemthgo so that didint' help..
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Hello [Aug. 26th, 2008|12:28 pm]
Hmmm alots happened since I last post quick list of good and bad

~Good~
~Still with my grilfriend
~Alive
.... okay so not alot

*Bad*
* Can't think of anythign ^^

So pretty much I've been good. I went to Dollywood with Kitt, Ryoko and Kagome and had a blast ^^ thoguth I was scared half to death on that one water ride >> XD but yeah. I thoguth I woudl update before I have to go tot theopry ^^
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